Prayer from the Heart

My my bedside I am kneeling
Asking, Lord, what am I feeling
Am I happy or am I sad
Am I good or am I bad

I need help, Lord, I pray
To make it through another day
Feelings flying all about
Help me Lord to sort them out

Is this love? I have to know
Tell me which way I should go
Should I go or should I stay
Help me, Lord, to find my way

I'm feeling all mixed up inside
I want to stay, yet still to hide
You're the only one to help me now
To make it through this day, somehow

I know now, Lord, what I should do
Just help me, Lord, to see it through
I'll do what you say with all my might
Thank you, Lord, and goodnight

River of Tears

a lonely boat sails through
a river of tears
passengers all unaware
of the pain

issuing form the river
upon which they
sail
beauty unparalleled is what
they see
in the crystal clear
water below
reverently they sail

in awe

down the river
of tears

Depression

Trapped, caught, struggling for air
Can't people hear me?
Doesn't anyone care?

Looking back I still can't see
When it first began
When it first caught me.

It snuck up so carefully, so quietly
And wrapped its self around
My soul and my body.

Little by little, step by step
It slowly confined me
While my mind slept.

My guard is now no more
There is nothing left
My thinking's very poor.

Now I'm wrapped up tight
I try to get out
Struggling with all my might.

But every time hope draws nigh
And I start to climb
I find the pit is just too high.

WHEN MY LIFE

HAS REACHED IT'S END

I'LL BE REMEMBERED

AS A FRIEND

Christmas Gift

Gifts were brought to the Christ-Child to celebrate his birth

A star shone just for him that night and angles graced the earth

The shepherds came and vigil kept at his humble bed

Animals gave up their home so he could rest his head

Wise men, three, brought him myrrh, frankincense and gold

Yet all he had was swaddling clothes to keep away the cold

Kings adore and poor receive their Savior, Lord, and King

As all rejoiced the gifts were given and our hearts gladly sing

For no gift was given the Holy Child that matched the one he gave

For upon that still and quiet night came the Holy One to save

OH, MY LOVE! IF ONLY......

Will you ever know, my love,
the way I feel for you?
How can I ever show you?
Oh, tell me, what can I do?

For when I try to tell you,
somethings always in the way.
So I end up saying, love,
nothing- what can I say?

Something in your eyes tell
Of your love for me.
You don't have to say a single word
For me to understand, to see.

So many things go unsaid,
the things I long to say.
They're swallowed up in shyness,
and are often blown away.

I long to tell you, love,
the secrets of my heart
but the feebleness of this frame I have
just will not let me start.

Oh, how I wish I knew
a way to let you know.
If only I could tell you, love,
How much I care for you!

My Song

Dancing in the tabernacle of my mind

the solitude as my floor

no walls to confine me

My imagination as my music

I dance the dance of joy

for I am in my room

But darkness invades

and fear stumbles my feet

I must dance the dance of sleep

But I know that when the dawn is here

I will be freed from my sleep

and dance my song once more

The dance of joy

with memories as my wings

and love as my rhythm

Solitude as my floor

and imagination as my music

I will dance the dance of joy

Hidden

You'll never know

the pain you dish

or hear the words

my heart does wish

You'll never hear

my heart break

or the music

my sobs make

You'll never see

a tear drop fall

or feel the weight

of the pain I haul

You'll just say

"I never knew"

because I'll never

show it to you

Lucky

Lucky is she who finds her love

Amid a storm of sorrow

Love

When I close my eyes from the world
And try to find some peace of mind
I see your face inside my minds eye
The smile to melt the heart of ice
Eyes that strike the soul of man
A heart that beats for all humanity
This and more is what I see
As you look at me

Someone to Love

Dear God
Hi it's meyou
I'm back again
With another plea

I'm sure that
Are quite busy up there
But if you have a second
Please answer my prayer

It seems that for everyone
There is someone they are for
You made everyone a couple
But you forgot to make one more

Try as hard as I might
I can't seem to see
The person you made
Just especially for me

I guess I better go now
I'll send this up above
Just please Heavenly Father
Send me someone I can Love.

The Rose

Prettily it hangs

ribbon trimmed

upon the wall

mustering memories

of time gone by

dead, yet living

beautiful, still

For time cannot kill

these memories of mine

and so it hangs

for all to see

and wonder why

I hang this

single rose

Troubled

My eyes are heavy but sleep wont come

to a mind as full as mine tonight.

Thoughts dance upon my stage

in the darkness of my mind.

I'm troubled, yes I must admit

but what to do is tough to know.

And so I long for sleep to come

but it dare not tread in

such a troubled mind as mine.

Masks

Everywhere I go
Everyone I see
Everything has on a mask
Nothings real to me

People put on a masquerade
Pretending to be my friend
But once my back is turned
There lies the friendships end

Everyone says they're the real thing
But I can see through them all
The masks look all the same
You can see them down the hall

Everywhere I go
Everyone I see
Everything has on a mask
Nothings real to me

Once I wore that selfsame mask
Just to see how it would be
To have a mask all my own
But the mask just wasn't me

I'd rather be myself
Though people think it a sin
I like the way that I am
Though I'm not really "in"

Everywhere I go
Everyone I see
Everything has on a mask
Nothings real to me

Though I can't make people be themselves
Tell them to do what they want to do
Why do people wear that mask?
Isn't it best to just be you?

Leaves of Grace

As Autumn whispers of
The winter to be
I sit and I ponder
On things that I see

Brilliant colors of death
Red, orange, and yellow
So cheerful and bright
Yet so somber and mellow

The painting of nature
Perfectly placed
I sit and I ponder
Over leaves of grace

The Piper

The sun goes down
The world turns round

As the piper plays his pipe

The children pay
In their marry way

As the piper plays his pipe

The adults they talk
The old ones walk

As the piper plays his pipe

The joy is spread
Though no word is said

As the piper plays his pipe

The Sun and The Sea

There are two things in life
As different as can be
One is the sun
The other the sea

The sea caries life
Hope and good cheer
But carries away with him
That thing you hold dear

The sun is a demon
That upon you will beat
Mixing your thoughts
In its sweltering heat

It tells you to kill and
To do things unjust
You try to resist
But do it you must

To do as he bids
Is to kill the sea
Who stole your treasure
As so was his fee

But torn as you are
You must choose today
Whichever the path
A price you will pay

So you sit and you ponder
One shot and its done
Now all that is left
Is the sweltering sun

Silence

Silence

A deep pit engulfing all
A blanket smothering sound
The sound of

Laughter
Love
Life

Silence

A thief in the night
A murderer that kills
The sound of

Crying
Moaning
Hearts breaking

Silence

A desert where nothing lives
A land of no return
Return from

Joy
Pain
Emotion

Silence

A numb mind and body
No thoughts or feelings
Feelings of

Depression
Hunger
Fun

Silence-
A welcome sound

The Girl

A child at play
Runs in the sun

A brand new dress
Floating in the breeze

She spins
Leaving the world behind

The sun reflecting
In her golden curls

No cares in the world
Smiling the smile of innocence

A gleam in her eye
A glow in her countenance

I wish I were there
I wish I were her

My Wish

If I could do anything I could

I would fly away

I would visit places far and near

And I'd leave today

Uncertainty

Life is about uncertainty
It's all around, it's all I see

I know that change is not all bad
Although it often makes me sad

To think that things will come and go
Whats permanent may not be so

I have some knowledge, I confess
It brings me joy and happiness

No matter how bad it was today
I tell myself this thing to say

Change and changeability
Is an inevitability